The Day of the Moths is a short poem about how I felt when suffering from COVID in May of 2020. I found things I would normally take for granted suddenly difficult: climbing the stairs, for example. Me and my family really struggled with the symptoms and I wrote the poem to reflect on how my body responded.
There are moths in my throat.
Fluttering their tiny wings,
Tickling my trachea.
Their wriggling legs fill my mouth
I try, I really do. Try to tell
Them I might vomit their lovely bodies
Into the sink.
A phoenix dances on my skin.
Fiery, like a tropical breeze
Simmering through my muscles.
You could cut me open,
Scramble eggs on my liver.
A true Full English Breakfast.
My heart gasps as I climb the stairs
to check on Mum. If I had the breath,
I’d laugh. How funny – eighteen and
Wheezing while Mum sits at her desk.
She is a blur. Dad, a thousand miles away,
His head in a bottle, lips nip-tucked by a whisky.
Weeds twist through my lungs, knotting at the spine
Fields rising, my bronchi become blue daisies.
Mayenne – the farm near Brittany,
Where Mum cooked organic prawns over granite
Blindly smiling at me with her black eyes, her split lip
As Dad drove the truck into a wall.
I deflate into a chair, try to read
The words sizzle.
A hot summer’s day in May.
If only I could stand, go out into the
Garden without my brain hovering
And falling into a cadre
Of Forget-Me-Nots.
I forget myself between breaths.
I got COVID a week after my Grandad died. Me and my mother live with my grandparents and when they went into hospital with him (as he was not suffering from COVID-19 but a brain haemorrhage) they came back infected and just before his funeral, I got it too. People my age (16-25) believe COVID won't affect them as much, but they really don't understand how dangerous it is. COVID absolutely flattened me. I suffered with quite harsh symptoms for a week, so I set myself the challenge of writing seven poems in seven days. This is one of those poems (from day 3).